Graduation is around the corner.

First off let me just say that I can not stand the DSM. I am not in the program and this book gives me Anxiety attacks. I can not tell you how many times I had to sit down and look through this book that causes small children to cry. Let alone the adults. It is a wonder how anyone would could or should have to endure such a thick book of terror. The next thing is this program seems to infect not only the preson taking it but the people around it.

Watching a movie now is an ordeal. I never before would watch a movie and try to see if the film was teaching a child things that are "not ok" as my wife would put it. I would look at it from the perspective of the film is made to entertain and that has not barring on the way that a child will act and or see the world; because that is the parents job to teach.

Erica and I watched the movie The Incrediblles. This is the perceptions that each of us got out of this film.

Anthony: I saw that the movie was well written, it had alot of cool graphics and action. I saw that the villian was very believeable and that the heros were more that capable of winning.

Pretty cut and dry. Now here is what Erica Lea Lewis B.A., M.S., MFTI thinks of the film.

In the first ten minutes of the film. There is a man that is trying to kill himself by jumping off a building. It teaches a child that they should not be who they are but be the person that fits into the way that the world wants you to be. That you can not always do your best.

That is how I watch movies today to see the deeper picture of what it is portraying to kids and how it will effect them in the future. I don't know maybe I needed to see this in a differnet light and let myself monitor what I watch as well as my future kids.

Family Ties

I wanted to write about the state that I feel I am in when it comes to my family and the dynamics of how we are. Right now I am in love with the most wonderful and compassionate woman I have ever had the pleasure of meeting. She is my wife. My Joy, my warmth, my strength and my guide in times that I have lost my way. For more than a while now I have been avoiding my family and some of the distasteful ways that they treat each other.

Right now my aunt LoLo is going through a really hard time in her heart with one or more of our family members and that is causing her to change the good natured way that she usually is towards evey situation. Normally I could not wait to go to my aunts house for the fact that she always had some kind of educational or just plain ol' fun activity for me and my two brothers to engage in. That seems to no longer exsist in her, and if it does it is not on the surface as it was in the past.

Her home is in shambles and needs major repair. I think that the way that she is being treated as an afterthought by those who so called needed her the most in thier own situations is cruel and uncalled for. I was one of the those few that needed her help once and still had no way to make up for the money, hospitality, and down right friendship that she bestowed upon me. I made a vow that I would give her my eveything to help get her back into her home and see that she is taken care of as if she were my own mother. Though that is my mind set I do not feel that her other nephew feels the same way. He is the reason that she is in this mess and still does not have the respect that it takes not to smoke away the blessings that were given to him in front of the woman who basically has paid his bills. At one time this would have been the pot calling the kettle black but I am, I feel, wisser now. I pray that this gets better today.

I am going to help my cousin to work on the plumbing today. There will only be me and him there and I again pray that he gets serious about repaying the enormous debt that he owes; as I have. Smoking weed is something that I feel should be done in the privacy of your own home. I can not stand by and watch this happen to her any longer. I will have to let him know that things need to change not just for my aunt but also for me. For I have had and will always have a desire that runs deep for the Chronic. I choose to remove myself from situations that would tempt me to ruin the career that my wife has worked so hard to achieve.

Please GOD let ther be no misunderstanding and that I am not trying to be judgemental about things. I just need to be focussed on the things that really matter in my life. Keep my mind clear and refresh my memory on the procedures that I need to know to accomplish my goal. Provide for LoLo and her needs for she is truly one of your chosen angels sent her to enrich this family.

Amen.